Shawn I am so comfortable with you that i will always feel safe and at home with you. to be honest i kinda think of you as my home, not the house i’m living in. And i’m sorry that my issues here are affecting your life. And when i said hold it in i just meant sometimes i wanna just stand on the top of a mountain and scream about my love for you, its not the bad kind of hold it in. i love you so much.. i just wanted to say i’m in love with you and i want to be in your arms right now instead of getting ready for work. i really hope that you don’t think that it is to soon but if you do i will wait. i just really really want to be with you. i hate not feeling you next to me when i wake up and i know i never have before. i just kinda feel like there is something missing here now. i don’t know if that just totally freaked you out so i’m gonna go finish getting ready. i love you so much!