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Numbing Narcoleptic

I live in fear of you
I am forced to live in shadows
Where the light of his denial can't reach in
Am I experiencing his honesty
Or an aspiration to be
Or am I kept in a box
Out of which I'm not allowed to peek...

I live in fear of you
The only love i've known
Where I wait to be left
As the insanity will consume him
Wrestling with the ego-mania
Where no responsibility is claimed and he calls it home
Who was there to catch me when I'd fall
Competition never taught right from wrong...

When do sleepers awake
Will they face the anguish their mistakes have made
Numbing narcoleptic injuries
Will you inflict more pain so that I can feel again
When there is nothing more to take
Will you pass me off as another histrionic phase
If I stand up for myself
What becomes of the promises you've made
Would you be able to look me in the eye
And for once forgive me for being right???

I live in fear of you, my only love...
I live in fear of you, my only love...
How you need it to be...
Another promise empties...

Numbing narcoleptic injuries
Will you inflict more pain so that I can feel again???

© SZ 11.25

Cold Enough 4 You

(worried about you) (i'm scared)
All it takes... I am... (all it takes...) (for me...)
Looking to you... Please... (me...)
One kiss sends me running... Just...
Looking to you... For me...
I'm running... I am...
It's (each) time, you'll bear the blame... (it has to be)
Look into my mirrors... Just... (see it my way)
Pick and choose my stains.

I make pain. I make pain...

All it takes to break... I am...
Looking to you... Please... (me)
One love sends me running... (just)
Look to you for me... (escaping)
I am running... I am...
It's time I took the blame... Please... (easily)
Look into my mirrors... I'll reflect the choices made...
(the choice you've made)

I make pain. I make pain.

I'm asking nothing of you. I'm asking of you everything.
I'm asking nothing of you. I'm asking for your faith...
Just believe for me. Please... Believe in me...


For Your Denial

You are the one that will make her cry...
You are the one that told her lies...
You are the one whose brain moves in cycles...
Now the adult and not the child...
Now it only Moves you Further...
And backwards to this blackness at the same time...

All Out Collapse, the world went black
For Your Denial...
Accost by Abuse, the world went dead
For Your Denial...
It's not true, the world according to you
For Your Denial...

You are the one correcting his pace...
You are the one just saving face...
You are the one whose brain moves in cycles...
Now The Adult Not A Child...
Now it only moves you Further...
And backwards to this blackness at the same time...

All Out Collapse, the world went black
For Your Denial...
Accost by Abuse, the world went dead
For Your Denial...
It's not true, the world according to you
For Your Denial...

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